Dear Kaveri,
How I’ve missed you! I miss you when you visit the past trying to make sense of how and why things played out the way they did. I miss you when you visit the future wanting to know the exact details so you won’t be swallowed by a potential land mine. I miss you when you fantasize about an alternate reality that sounds better than this one.
I know that most times I am not all that exciting. The few times that I am, you’ll want to fly into the future imagining more moments like this and where they might lead. If I’m challenging, you might revisit the past and feel weighed down by much more than what is actually happening right now.
Kaveri, you don’t get a demerit for leaving me. I’m not like a ruthless god or angry parent who will only pay attention and care about you only if you’re perfect. I understand the temptation to leave. It’s in your genetics, your blood, your bones. To reach for me, to return to the freedom and peace I offer takes a great deal of patience and courage.
Thank you for remembering me today. Thank you for stopping periodically to connect with me, to receive my benevolence and well wishes for you on the inbreath, releasing past, future, and fantasy on the outbreath. It is a radical act of kindness, of perseverance, of faith unlike any other.
May you know that no matter how often you leave me, you are always welcome here. How I’ve missed you!
Your Faithful Friend on The Journey,
This Moment